There’s a quote that reads ‘Be fearless in whatever sets your soul on fire.’ I love that quote.
Honestly, it relates so much to my current situation right now and I’ll tell you why. So if you know me very well, you’ll know that I’m one of those people that cringe’s about a lot of things. Specifically things that have to do with self-promotion and putting myself out there. I now know the reason behind this, but before I didn’t. I spoke to my brothers about this fact and they admitted that they’re the same, which made me relieved that at least two people get it. You see, I grew up shy and when you grow up shy, you’re just not used to wanting to be the centre of attention, so that’s one reason.
Secondly, I think part of me has this fear of what others will think about/of me if I for lack of a better word ‘do the most’. Let’s say I upload a post that is a bit controversial, or I leave a mini speech under one of my instagram photos, (regardless of what the topic is) or just generally putting myself out there, I feel too ‘showy’ and uncomfortable. But what even is that?! Why do I regard that as ‘showy’ or why does that bring me discomfort?! I mean, if you’re trying to get somewhere and be somebody, sometimes you’ve got to be ‘showy’. A male friend of mine left me a really long voice note (after I expressed how I realised that this ‘issue’ of mine was hindering my progress), which really made things clearer for me. In order to cut a long story short, I need to be more fearless in showing the world my talents and what I’m made of. I am well aware of all that I have to offer and the thoughts of others or the fact that I cringe every time I add ridiculous amounts of hashtags to my photos should not bother me. At the end of the day I’m doing this for me and no one else.