Growing up shy meant that I didn’t like a lot of attention. I wouldn’t raise my hand in class even though I knew the answer, and when the child who supposedly knew the answer raised his hand and got it wrong, I’d be upset that I didn’t express my knowledge. Another thing I would do was sign up for drama class because I liked acting (but what do you know, I would scribble my name off the board before 3rd period was over). I guess the fear of saying 3 lines really held me back. Who knows!
Putting myself ‘out there’ was the scariest thing to me and in some ways it still is, slightly. I took ballet lessons for 6 years and I loved it with all my heart, in fact when it was time for my ballet recital, I couldn’t wait to get my costume on and slay the stage. The nerves were still there, but because this was something that I absolutely loved. I pushed through it and got my bouquet at the end.
You see, I would describe myself as an ambivert. I love my ‘me time’, but I also enjoy going out with friends and partying all night. The ratio however, is very imbalanced, thus the ambivert ‘diagnosis’. I remember when this guy really wanted to take me out on a first date, so he asked me ‘Hey Nengi, so what would you like to do on Thursday’ Now, I knew damn well…
