I struggle with being proactive during the Autumn/Winter months, which is more than half of the year in Britain, so I looked it up and it’s called SAD. Seasonal Affective Disorder. It’s pretty much a case of severe winter blues or winter depression. However, I prefer not to use the term ‘depression’ unless I’m sure it’s actually THAT deep, which it isn’t. In my case, I’m not able to give certain tasks my full attention without getting restless 15 minutes in. I also get distracted with social media, where I see individuals in warmer climates (where I would love to be) living their lives. Then there’s my lack of hydration in the form of pure water. Not tea, (which I drink a lot of) not juices, not fizzy drinks, just pure water. I find it difficult to drink water in winter. What can I say; I’m just not thirsty.
Due to all of the above, I’m not able to achieve all the things I would like to achieve in a week. I make a plan the day before, but I wake up late (on the day’s I’m not getting up for work) due to being cosy and knowing that when I emerge from underneath my duvet, I will be hit with the cold. It also does not help that I’m not in my ideal occupation. I mean, I’m working towards it (as hard as I can work with SAD) but I’m not IN IT right this second. Patience. Another thing that I promised myself I would have more of come 2017. I’m getting there, but it might take a while. Which is really what patience is all about.
Things taking a while,
You taking a while,
Life taking a while,
All that being said, I intend to put the ‘best’ of me out into the universe and I must say, it does feel good knowing that you’re trying your very best. Sometimes it doesn’t feel like your best, but if you know there’s actually no more you can do with the resources you have, then let me be the one to let you in on a little secret. You are trying your best. We all have different definitions of ‘bests’. Don’t fool yourself though, if you’re not happy with your situation, then really look inward and ask yourself if you’re doing all you can do to get ahead. I’m a very ambitious person, so when I am not able to do something due to X,Y,Z, I get frustrated. Genuinely frustrated. I don’t believe the world owes me anything, but I believe I deserve the best, which is why I try my best. For myself. You should too.