I don’t tend to let things get to me, but lately almost everything has been getting to me. I’ve been a bit down with regards to my career, my friends, a guy and just life in general. It really upset me because I rarely get these episodes, if anything I tend to be the ‘helping hand’ and the ‘shoulder to lean on’ for others, so when I began feeling this way, I felt as though I’d let myself down. (Using the word feeling and felt so close together. I swear my emotions are beyond me).
Things in my life were going a certain way and I was content and genuinely happy but suddenly, said things came to a halt which resulted in me being low-key off balance. I constantly found myself over-thinking, asking a multitude of questions, and contemplating life in general.
Let it be know, that was not a healthy way of living. The mental fatigue alone was pretty crushing and I didn’t think all this minor change would overwhelm me as much as it did. Albeit it did, but I rode the wave. If you’re ever in a rut or you simply just feel overwhelmed at life, the best thing I have found is to feel it. By ‘feel it’, I mean, let it fully go through you mentally/physically. Eat if you need to, cry if you need to (like me), pray if you need to (also like me), travel if you need to. Just do things that you believe will aid in your overcoming of this overwhelming and somewhat confused state. Sometimes upsetting things happen, and we ask ourselves why, because you know, good things should happen to good people right? Wrong.
One thing I’ve learnt is that life comes at you hard and fast and I’m sure in the not-so-distant future, I’ll look back on these past few weeks and wonder what even was overwhelming me. Either that, or i’ll realise that the things I cried over don’t really amount to anything (in the grand scheme of things). That’s the beauty of life. With enough time and focus on your passions, everything tends to get better because you’re living for you. There’s a quote that was a bit tough to come to terms with (because I was still a bit stuck on my previous ‘happiness’ and ‘contentedness’ before things shifted) which reads:
“At some point you just have to let go of what you thought should happen and live in what is happening.”